the missing piece

i was very ambitious and decided to make a big print .... as a treat for myself...

of course, i started with a concept, reference, photographs....

and then, one day, my intuition took over the entire process...

until i woke up the next day not realizing what i have done to my plate...


weeks and days have passed by, and i still do not understand why and how my plate turns out to be this way....

but that's not what bothers me....

while i am staring at it, something is totally missing... something that would give the entire print its meaning, its heart & soul...

but of course i do not know what is missing piece...

and then my dear friend told me this evening,

"maybe it is meant to be missing something"

have i been thinking too much? am i too thirsty to grab this whatever thing i am looking for?

empty-plain-white could be good....

but i cannot realize it right now because i have been sunken into a whole pile of randomness...
surrendered with my own explosives.....anger...rage...bang!

where to find this empty-plain-white-boring 'ness'?

i want it so badly right now

i want the world to be like this:__________________

right now