long awaiting chinese new year

countdown for the arrival of the upcoming chinese new year 2009...probably going to be one of the most memorable and hardest new year of my life....

i know you are all here for me but i need to be alone...
i know you want to hug me but i can only feel the cold...
when i saw those painful eyes searching for my shadow,
i could only run away because ...
i am currently looking for my soul
my strength....my love....

please forgive me if i have been so cold...
it's only in my dreams... in the dark

when i can feel the warmth in your arms.

....
my hibernation period begins...