Saturday, January 31, 2009

sparks of little good moments

1. my stereo (10 years old, received as a gift when my mom got her credit card...) finally broke. So I have detached all the plugs to throw it out of my room. I took glimpse of this nara toy that my friend had bought me 5 years back. i first startled...then dust it off and place it next to my bed.
~i had a split second of remembering my friend (now in aussie pursuing her dream)...i have not seen her for 3 years at least....i hope that she is doing well and have found her dream.


~nara toy from 5 years ago

2. i received a phone call at work yesterday. My friend (now stationed in BJ) calling me crying and emotional. I was so worried at first, and later I realized that she was crying happily because she has finally received the CD that I have sent to her earlier. She has been looking for this soundtrack for quite so time. We used to talk about the soundtrack all the time. And by chance, i saw it in the cinema shop and immediately bought it...thinking of her the entire time.
~i felt so blessed to hear from her and that she is okie, working alone in BJ. i enjoy how doing little things could make her so happy all the time. Yes, she is emotional type, but the good kind...laughing all the time, spreading her joy and excitement to everyone around her all time!

3. I was going to watch 'The curious case of Benjamin Button" last night alone. I mean, it's a 3-hours long movie and who would wanna spend 3-hours (930pm show) to watch a movie on Friday night?! i was kinda worried that the movie would be too long and become a drag (a lot of movies talking about someone's life tends to do that).... and then i received a phone call from my sister saying that she has bought tix for one of my buds and herself to sit next to me. I was so touched....(of course i did not show it).
~
i am so happy that i did not watch this film alone or with ppl that i hardly know. i was so emotional during the entire film...i had quite a number of tear dropping moment, and i definitely needed to talk to ppl who know me well about the film immediately after. i got all of that last night.

4. i started chatting with one of my old friends since this past week. yes, this is because we had a common topic - insomnia. I know her but i dont know her well. We went out for a quick drink last night to talk about each other's problems/random thoughts. Drinking/catching up with and old friend/and sitting outside -- perfect setting for a friday late night.

~i am happy that she decided to ditch her party and came out to watch me drink tea in the patio. i have almost forgotten that it could be so easy and comfortable to talk to someone like her. i did not think too much of anything i spilled out of my mouth. We laughed, swore, and shared our thoughts. And the best part is, I got a very good night sleep when i got home after.

today is such a beautiful day ... the sun shines brightly on the sky to wake me up...there is a slight breeze in the air...
today would be a great day just like yesterday...

soundtrack of the day:
Parachutes - Coldplay

Thursday, January 29, 2009

the nightmare of insomnia

yes, yesterday was the last holiday b4 work of 2009 begins.



it maybe of this reason - the denial of needing to be in the office at 9am the next day. therefore, my subconscious mind is telling my brain to keep thinking...to keep being awake, because the best time is not going to last....



unfortunately, this is not such a good idea because i did not fall asleep until 700am this morning, and i had to wake up at 730am and get ready to work

all i remember is that my eyes were wide open in the dark for as long as i can remember; remember that the room turns from pitch black to greyish blue, seeing the dim sunlight shining through my windows....

i will not ponder why i could not fall asleep,
i did not read anything boring last night,
i remember that i was counting sheep at 4am (when was the last time i seriously did that)
i listened to like a whole bunch of music...fiona apple, mazzy star's both cds, portishead live, garden state ost....my macbook must be burnt out...
i did think a lot about the movie i watched in the afternoon - 非誠勿擾
~i highly recommend the film~ but i definitely sympathized with a lot of the little thoughts that the movie raised; i guess tiny deja-vus ....

now i have took a nap at lunch time and wake up....i am in the office again....600pm will come soon....then i will fall asleep again.

the nightmare of this insomnia not only carries through last nite of forcing me to stare at the ceiling for 7 hours in complete darkness, but onto today's surreal office setting...with the yellowish fluorescent light shining onto my computer screen....another 4 hours to go, then i can fall asleep again...

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

MOM DAY

very warmhearted afternoon in this cold dry jan 27th, 2009

spent the afternoon eating brunch with mom and vicki
~thanks to brunch club for opening~ mommy loves the cozy atmosphere...i loved the caesar salad!

went family shopping together, i don't even recall our last shopping trip together as a family...


reading:
Survivor - Chuck Palahniuk
~got tricked by the author again....did not realize that i had to read it backwards until like chapter 7!!! had to start all over again...but he is one great black ironic author...i like him a lot..~

interest of the day:
33-1/3 series
a series of tiny books talking about different albums.
i was skimming each book's album and realized that i have not heard all of them. i shall start looking up these albums and listen to them.

and maybe the hkg music scene shall do something along these lines as well. i think that we need to be more educated (including myself) of the good local shit out there..



how many of these albums have you thoroughly heard?

~image thanks to http://33third.blogspot.com/~

song of the day:
nina simone - here comes the sun

Monday, January 26, 2009

chinese new year - courage to think what 2009 should be like...

this has been one of my least family-oriented chinese new year ever...all of my family members are doing his/her own thing....and i have spent this chilly afternoon working in the printshop...

the printing session was not so great, but the empty studio allows me to think what's ahead in 2009

goals to be more productive of all aspects in 2009...

no need to think too much on what and why i am doing, just do it....

doing more will help me to gain more results and new ideas on everything!


stop thinking too much!


be more open-minded to everything around me...

more watching...searching...looking...observation is the key!


keep reading more and more...keep my ears open...

don't categorize...don't miss out


product of the day:
1st printing session of 2009




-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- interesting article to read about:
Stop Teaching Handwriting (from GOOD)

song of the day: Ulysses - Franz Ferdinand

Thursday, January 22, 2009

doodle session

doodling in new friend's studio...
subject: unknown
location: unknown (would not know how to tell you ....)
date & time: Jan 21st , 2009 ... bright daylight...late afternoon



note to bora:
bora...i am still doodling nonsense...so i am okie...
i wanted to cry, but i doodled instead....and listening to 'broken social scene....broke me up'.... thanks luv for your msg, long distance huggies and kisses...i feel them all...

thank you colleagues

my firm is full of 110% '正'同事!体贴的 一族! 亲爱的 ... 我是多麼想向你們說些祝賀的說話。讓我現在轻轻地說聲,‘‘新年快樂!" 這些小蛋糕好漂亮啊!thanks dan!



guess which one did i pick?

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

i have remembered, now i have to move forward

i have placed all my greatest memories with you in the deepest part of my heart...

i now that you could still by my side listening ... watching ... guiding

today i cried,

tomorrow when i wake up, the sun shall shine brightly through my window

i will grab both of my feet and move forward ...

continue to pursue my life and joy,

my dreams....

because i know you will always be on my side...

awaiting me to put my broken pieces back together.

you are still here.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

falling in love with two guys in a hour!

location: fringe club, hk

guy #1: Andreas Kern
guy #2: Paul Cibis

duration: 1hr



the idea of watching these two great young pianists battling for the championship is pure pleasure and joy....cannot debate who did i love more during a 60-minute period...

i fell in love with two guys in a hour for $180, what a deal!!

they are both humorous, cute and extremely talented in front of the piano...check it out! i still cant debate who do i love more....

http://pianobattle.com/

andreas kern:
http://www.andreaskern.net/index.html

paul cibis:
http://www.klemenssander.at/paulcibis/index.php

ah, what a night....

Thursday, January 15, 2009

olafur eliasson - cool book


check this out...


the art of paper, laser cutting and your imagination ... of course it talks about space making as well...




Wednesday, January 14, 2009

long awaiting chinese new year

countdown for the arrival of the upcoming chinese new year 2009...probably going to be one of the most memorable and hardest new year of my life....

i know you are all here for me but i need to be alone...
i know you want to hug me but i can only feel the cold...
when i saw those painful eyes searching for my shadow,
i could only run away because ...
i am currently looking for my soul
my strength....my love....

please forgive me if i have been so cold...
it's only in my dreams... in the dark

when i can feel the warmth in your arms.

....
my hibernation period begins...